Thursday, February 4, 2010

A Heart's longing

As I sit here on a gloomy day, in between shifts of work, sipping my dark hot cocoa, I find myself longing for something. I feel like I long for what I know as "home". Maybe because it sounds warm and comforting or because I am not content with my life right now, but is that really what I'm longing for...and if so, will I be satisfied in that?
Although home feels good, it doesn't satisfy that craving deep within. Nothing will ever satisfy that, except for ONE. The desire is there for a purpose...the purpose is for it to be fulfilled, but it only will when you let God be the ONE.
God has been drawing me into a love of holiness lately. This sounds good, but if I'm honest, it's really painful. Why? This love is hard to explain because holiness is hard to explain. It is set apart, different than anything or anyone. Therefore, when trying to talk about it to people who are constantly IN the world and unfortunately swayed by their longings, it doesn't make sense. I wrestle with what it means in my life...movies, music, magazines, friends, decisions, books, time management, etc, etc, etc.
Even harder than knowing what it looks like in my own life, is seeing people that I love blatantly disrespect or go against the holiness of God. When God awakens your heart to this and you develop a genuine fear, it hurts to see people mistreat God. How do we do it? I believe it's clear in the passage below, but first you have to care. That would get us into another conversation...God must give you the Grace to understand, for we are finite...and it is only by His grace that we are drawn to Him. But, if you love Him (truly) and are seeking Him (with your whole heart) you will see, know, and understand this...and it will develop into a life changing knowledge...and your heart will long for full obedience to HIM. And you will feel right at home!

Therefore, preparing your minds for action, and being sober-minded, set your hope fully on the grace that will be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ. As obedient children, do not be conformed to the passions of your former ignorance, but as he who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct, since it is written, "You shall be holy, for I am holy." 1 Peter 1:13-16

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instruction. Proverbs 1:7


  1. Chrissie, this is a beautiful post, and so timely in my life. When I read it, I thought of the song by Mandisa "Only the world". It's so easy to get discontent, and caught up in what the world has to offer, when God IS our world, and everything He has to offer is enough. :)

  2. I thought I had left lots of comments on almost all your entries, but I see none of them! That is dumb!

    Anyway, I love this post and I love what God is doing in your life! I feel a similar working in my heart, to fix my eyes on what is important and to store up my treasures in heaven. I've been particularly sensitive to "foolishness" in my life and in the lives of those I love.

    I LOOOOOOOVVVE your blog and I love you! A sweet friend that inspires and challenges me to chase hard after God. So glad you started a blog!